MARKKO DONTO

Markko DONTO
forget my first and last name and call me KKO prima facie i look inimical but i'm not I'm just shy . My sobriquet is KKO and i'm sui generis . I'm not here to proselytize you . I'm EVERYTHING from the pretty to the not so pretty and rather dirty to disturbing.

markkodonto@gmail.com

nowadays ...

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

UPDATED : for the tird time i do not like JUSTIN in that way ok we are besties

I'm not writing to get attention from anyone I'm just writing to get this thoughts away from my mind & if someone read this its fine I'm just a regular person like everyone else .its 11:42 & I'm annoyed of everything everyone & my self ! I took a shower for the 3rd time just to wake up & see what's going on I look like shit & I'm in such horrid mood & I'm just trying to find nice things in this day but there wasn't any . I'm cold bored with such a horrid mood so emo for any reason my day was so horrible . I knew I was going to have a bad day since the morning I knew , I've never had a day like this after so months. I'm calling a cleaning lady from the newspaper to come & clean all this apt tomorrow , I just want to see everything clean & in order . I'm going to wake up & do my laundry . I need to talk to my sister I really need my own space & room again , I hate being in this room hearing her fucking convos on the phone with her friends & specially her boyfriend!!!!! . I hate that she makes so much noise for no reason 24/7 we use to get along so good last year this year everything changed he's now older & I'm older idk anything anymore , I wish I would just take my old room & push my bed in it & forget about everything that's making my life so complicated for no reason .but I have to wait until the roommate moves out . I just want to have my bed on the floor my clothes on the corner & that's all no tv no furniture nothing just a bed .I wish my goodfriend lived around me so we can order pizza & just watch movies all night :( , but everyone is just not worth it to even talk . I miss jalil so much he was my right & left hand , he would make my days better with his words & stupidity I miss friends like that , you can never have a friend in new york if you don't give them something or take something away from you :/ everyone is so fake nowadays & pretend to love you & when you try to help them they don't take your help . people in this city doesnt know what the word friendship mean .I'm so tired of everyones shit . this newyears I make 1 year of parting none stop I'm serious & ask me if I'm happy? I'm not , not at all . next year ill study ,try to get my life more together & just be more normal a lil bit more . I have a psycho appointment tomorrow , hopefully I get what I want & need . I just ate cereal , this city is so depressing everyones eyes are just so sad , I just still wonder if I'm going to find that someone that will make my days better with no matter what he says to me at night . the show friends doesnt make me happy anymore . I hope I have a better day tomorrow & not a shity day like todays . & all I have to do is just relax sit back & wait until everything bad goes away . & not freak out & go crazy I do not wanna have crazy days anymore I'm trying to be more normal everyday & go out during the day more & more & not just at night like a bat .

I really hope tomorrow someone wakes me up or I wake up with a smile .

UPDATED
AFTER ALL justin made my day by talking to me for long :)

this vid made my day too

12/03/2008 11:13:00 PM | click COMMENT 0 comments

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