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Friday, July 17, 2009

The minute I think about this I come across with the same answer yes i'm young and shouldn't be thinking about this so much but i can't help it , i just can't wait to fall in love again . I hate my self for saying romantic shit like that but oh well . I saw this movie and all those little feelings i sometimes get about the things i wanna do to my future boyfriend . things you don't normally plan but things that you would like to have or do to your boyfriend like holding his penis while he's peeing or give him a kiss on his tummy when he is getting dress little details that make us fall in love , the last time i was in love was moons ago i think i was so young and didn't know much about sex but i knew a lot of cute things to make my boyfriend happy . I wanna wake up with not a sore body because we fucked all night long but instead waking up with a big smile on my face because he's behind me hugging me with his dick hard but not inside my butt hole or vice versa . I just wanna do cute things that i did when i was younger all those things that most of the guys i been with think are boring , like holding hands while walking at the central park and not stoping next to a tree to rub his dick while no body is looking , i mean i do like things like that but not all the time maybe, no not maybe i think i'm over all that shit .

My friend always tells me if there is no sex in a relationship then there is no relationship and she is kinda right sex is really important in a relationship , having that desire for someone is just amazing getting wet just to see his boner , rubbing his dick with yours is just wonderful but not everything is sex , yes me markko that loves fucking and getting fucked but i believe that making love is better than just having sex you know ! , making love is better because love and satisfaction are linked together it's a different feeling that not everyone knows or ever experienced. I know how it feels when your partner kisses you and transmits that feeling that goes directly to your brain and tells you " he loves me ", i know how it feels when he tells you i love you with his eyes and not with his mouth or dick . i guess i got traumatized when i spoke to this relationship counselor not because i needed help , i mean come one i'm too young for that but i spoke to her because she's my friend and i just had some random questions about relationships and she explained to me that there are some steps on falling in love and most of you already know the first one , when you are anxious and exited to get to know that person , crazy to see how big his dick is how fat it is , crazy to see him to know a little bit more further deep about his life and all that and thats the most most exiting part of falling in love because you just cant wait to do all this things and get to know that person more and more but later step number two comes thats when things get less exiting and less crazy why ? because you already know him you already know him lets say a %55 you know him and thats when things either get boring , fall apart , or you get more attached to him because you already know him and you've already spent a lot of time with him , only few people get to cross that line , others break up and go to step number one with a different person ! in fact there is a lot of people addictive to step number one and i find that very lame but oh well what ever floats your boat honey . In the other hand other couples are strong enough and get to move to step number three when you already know him , he already knows you and things are just right you guys been going out for quiet long time and know that everything is just fine and thats what we call love when you know that the person knows you , when you know that he belongs to you and you belong to him . but yea there is always a but after that you know him so well and he knows you so much that things might get tricky , annoying or boring and thats when you get temped to cheat or talk to someone else , but only real lovers know how to deal with this and keep it up and get more attached .

When i heard all of this i was like wow i mean i kinda had an idea about this but didn't know that this is how humans act in order to love someone then i kept asking my friend the relationship counselor more questions about this tabu . I felt like i was taking therapy about love or something .. but thats when i realized that all my x relationships that lets say did not work out were because he never got to know me enough to realize how amazing i am or maybe i got to know him very well that i realized i didn't want to be with a person like him . There is one thing for sure , i know what i want and what i can give and what i can't and when i give a chance for a boy to get to know me and me to get to know him because a relationship consists in two , i share what i want that with him and if we don't match then i just move on because i do not waste my time anymore yea thats right not anymore and sometimes they say oh you are way too mature about this and in fact that doesn't make me sad it makes me know that i'm not the one confused and that i'm know my self and i know what i'm looking for . And what i need is real love and not just a fuck . I'm not waiting for Mr Perfect but for Mr Worth My Time. goodnight - M.DONTO
PS : i did not copy and paste this from the net this came from my mind at 6:43 am .
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Labels: life, love
7/17/2009 06:11:00 AM |
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